20070630
Not in quite a good shape, just had a minor tear in my shoulder while throwing yesterday, and my doc even said that it will likely lead to a dislocation on my comp day itself, judging from the way i explode in my comp.
the end is near, Friday, 6 days more, .. the last throwing competition that i'll be taking part in. Not gonna bloody care if i end up in hosp. after the throw or whatever, I just want a PB thats better than last year, a good one, no a bloody good one.
And then, i will will have to rest really well till the final day of the track season itself, so that i can step up the podium and raise the team trophy up really high (w/o feeling any pain in my shoulder) and share the moment with the rest of the team. Get the picture? haha okay i think i am insane .....
Hmmm looks like i have got everything planned out nicely, lol. Don't take what i said in this entry too seriously, just a little disturbed and irritated by how suay i am to have an injury now.
But who cares I will not gonna let it affect my performance, yep it won't, N-E-V-E-R.
Ending my last nationals the way it started thats my
dream.
posted @ 11:26 AM
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20070623
14 days to my events, but I guess its time to shift the focus outwards, only then will your problems seem smaller.... (:
Com'on team, this is the day you have been waiting for,
give everything that you've got,
fight till your last breath with no regrets
and finally, thank you
for standing beside me & fighting this grueling battle for the past five years.
5 years of Victory would have been impossible without ALL of you guys.
Lets make history repeat itself like 6 yrs ago
Quadruple champs
That was how we started off in our 1st yr
and that shall be the way we end it as well...
Red&Yellow, its time to own.
posted @ 12:23 AM
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20070618
Well.. finally coach opened his golden mouth to actually speak to me a little more today. He re-emphasized on the point that i am just bloody freaking unlucky to fall sick at that extremely crucial point of time (April - May), for me, esp when i ain't such a hardworking regular trainer in my off-season times.
Yep, and thats not all. The bomb comes when he actually said that now is the time to slack. More training will just be counterproductive, esp. when I just recovered frm something serious and my body is still in a very crappy state. The thing is that, you see yourself screwing so badly at the field, throwing nowhere near your Last year's distance, your mental will automatically fire you up to work harder and AT LEAST get back to your old standards. And then, you receive a professional advise from the coach to just slack and leave it to fate... thats why i have been so bloody troubled for the past few weeks. On second thought perhaps what he said was really true, cause i have been steadily dropping ever since the first day i came back to train.
Wanna Train also cannot, Dun train also cannot.
!$#@!%#@
I used to think that its impossible to throw a distance thats worse than your previous years no matter how bad you are, and if thats the case you should just bloody quit since you are actually wasting your own time.
tada, now it happens to me.
This is when i just let go, do what i am supposed to do and let the show run by itself.
Making the best outta the worst, lets see what happens.
training, throwing, training and throwing sorry for bothering you guys with these kinda unproductive entries. Need a place to actually vent it all out
somehow i can't wait for everything to be over
posted @ 10:49 PM
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20070612
well... my throwing is really going down the drain.. as coach has said, its impossible to hope for miracles esp. after the bronchitis which has to freaking recover only a mth before my bloody nats. Screw it, its my fault, you can't just blame it on luck that you get such shit cause such stuffs can actually be prevented if u took good care of yourself in the first place... ...
And there i am fighting hard against fate against time, really hard... i guess i have to really step down on the intensity before i really break myself into pieces. My joints are really in pain, just like the way i felt before i got injured in sec 2 and had to stop training for 1 3/4 yr. I guess its because of the fac that i actually i started whacking since the first dae i came back frm my sickness. The worst time of my life so far, can't let that happen in my final year/J2 year... i still have A's man..
ARgh.... thanks for the reminder.
I will try to rest.........
posted @ 11:49 PM
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20070603
Well well.. time really flies, I guess the standard chartered apprentice challenge was not that bad after all.. our team got second, and we were pretty close to clinching the top position, thats what i heard from the facilitators ):
it was hell of a tiring and worrying for the event to actually fall right smack in the middle of a JC2 june hols.lol.
However i actually couldn't have done much too even if i didn't attend the workshop, esp. when i wasn't even fit enough to train during the week. I guess it was really interesting to actually forge new friendships when many of us were from different JCs and unis, both local and overseas. You actually do learn a lot from the experience of others.
Well, I was glad to find that many of the ppl there were rather crappy and funny too, and that really made my time there a hell lot more interesting.lol. I was pretty lucky that i managed ended up in a pretty nice grp(the grp includes u too dan, haha) which bonded pretty well during the challenge. We still do talk lots of cock on msn whenever we see each other online.
The facilitators were rather outgoing and cranky too, and the best part was all the free meals drinks and food which they provided, esp the last day when we finally get to get some quality foood for free, lol.
I guess one most important thing which i have learnt during the workshop through my conversations with the people is how unpredictable life can actually be. And because of this, perhaps the last thing you should ever do is to take the risk and plan your life around empty hopes, or forego your interest and dreams just because you are holding on to something that may or may not belong to you in time to come. After all... whatever thats supposed to be yours will be yours, and whatever thats not will not belong to u, its all part of God's plan...
Same rule applies to my nationals in 1 mth's time. Its gonna be extremely tough, and insane for me to push myself and regain my form after being out of training for so damn long. But rest assured, i will believe, I will accept the challenge and i will fight and do my best till the very last moment...
For my last and final year, For my team, For my school,
for noob, For God
posted @ 1:22 AM
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